Who wants to live and love forever?
'Who wants to live forever' itu judul dari salah satu lagu terkenal dari Queen. Lagu tersebut merupakan bagian dari inspirasiku untuk mencurahkan pikiranku tentang keabadian dan infinity. Apalagi aku baru menghadiri sakramen perkawinan, makin lengkaplah semuanya.
Jadi begini, sudah semenjak beberapa bulan ini hidup aku pasrahkan saja kepada Sang Pencipta. Mengapa aku katakan begitu? I don't know what life is. Ada banyak misteri dalam kehidupan yang menurut aku tidak akan pernah ditemukan jawaban atasnya. Yang membuat aku pasrah ada 2 hal, keabadian dan infinity (tak terhingga). Keduanya berhubungan dalam ruang dan waktu. Infinity dan eternity sama-sama bermakna forever atau selamanya, yang artinya tak akan pernah berakhir. Infinity berhubungan dengan ruang, sedangkan eternity berhubungan dengan waktu. Kita sekarang ini hidup di dalam sebuah jagad raya yang katanya bakal ada selamanya. Therefore, infinity and eternity exist if the theory holds.
Infinity. Can be obtained by dividing anything, except zero, by zero. No one has been able to perfectly visualize infinity because there's no good reference to show it. Infinity is anything divided by zero. What is zero? At school, we learn that zero is a single point. However, it is not true. Zero is not a point; zero is nothing. Meaning that it exists but we can't see it. We can still see particles in nanometer scale, but zero doesn't have any dimensions at all. As a number approaches zero, the denominator approaches infinity. As a result, we can not see zero and infinity. Infinity becomes a big problem for me at the time I start thinking about how big the universe is. It is stupid because everyone says that it is infinite. The question is where are we right now? I want to know why earth is located in a solar system inside the Milky Way Galaxy. Is the universe created only for human being? If God creates human being on earth, does God also creates other beings in other planets in other galaxies or does every planet has its own God? I feel that I'm lost and I can't do anything. It feels like I'm trapped with more than a billion people here on earth. Probably from another reference point, we are the zero and someone see that universe is definitely infinite. No one knows that. We even have a limit according to Einstein's Postulates. We have a cosmic speed limit, the speed of light. We can not exceed the speed of light because we need infinite amount of energy to accelerate something to speed of light. If that's true, we won't be able to find how big the universe is.
Eternity. It is related to the wedding that I've mentioned earlier. It's about love, unending love. When we say eternity, it means time will never stop. Keeps on going forever. What I'm asking is that where are we going? I don't know where time is going to lead us if the time keeps moving. In our lives, we are already used to the doctrine that everything has an end, even our lives. We are going to die eventually. Everything is going to vanish, even the stars and the galaxies (like I've said in my previous blog). However, this rotation keeps on going forever, towards eternity, and we are just a little part of it. Why are we here now at this time? Once again I feel I'm lost. I have to follow the flow of the time (until I die for now), and I can't make a change for it. It is fixed.
This what makes me start thinking of how difficult a marriage is. I say difficult because I have to love my spouse forever. Forever seems to be a burden for me because I don't know how long it is. It is not defined. All things we know in life is defined, except infinity and eternity. I want to love someone but I don't know if I can love her forever. It's a hard thing to do. Yesterday I went to a wedding. During the blessings for the couples, the bride and the groom said to each other that they will love his or her spouse until he or she dies. Isn't it supposed to be forever? If I only love my wife in a lifetime, what is going to happen after I die? Won't I see her again if I go to heaven? I really love someone and she knows that I love her, but this thing sometimes disturbs my mind. It is a great trial that every couple will face when they are married. Divorce means a violation to the promise one makes to God.
In short, eternity and infinity has changed my view about this life. I am nothing. Because I can't find the answer elsewhere, I lean my body onto God. For me, it is the only way to find the answer. If someone can explain to me about eternity and infinity perfectly to me, my view will probably change. Infinity and eternity become a big mystery of how great God is. It makes me scared because I don't know where we are and where we are heading to. I just kneel down and pray that I will be safe in my life.
Jadi begini, sudah semenjak beberapa bulan ini hidup aku pasrahkan saja kepada Sang Pencipta. Mengapa aku katakan begitu? I don't know what life is. Ada banyak misteri dalam kehidupan yang menurut aku tidak akan pernah ditemukan jawaban atasnya. Yang membuat aku pasrah ada 2 hal, keabadian dan infinity (tak terhingga). Keduanya berhubungan dalam ruang dan waktu. Infinity dan eternity sama-sama bermakna forever atau selamanya, yang artinya tak akan pernah berakhir. Infinity berhubungan dengan ruang, sedangkan eternity berhubungan dengan waktu. Kita sekarang ini hidup di dalam sebuah jagad raya yang katanya bakal ada selamanya. Therefore, infinity and eternity exist if the theory holds.
Infinity. Can be obtained by dividing anything, except zero, by zero. No one has been able to perfectly visualize infinity because there's no good reference to show it. Infinity is anything divided by zero. What is zero? At school, we learn that zero is a single point. However, it is not true. Zero is not a point; zero is nothing. Meaning that it exists but we can't see it. We can still see particles in nanometer scale, but zero doesn't have any dimensions at all. As a number approaches zero, the denominator approaches infinity. As a result, we can not see zero and infinity. Infinity becomes a big problem for me at the time I start thinking about how big the universe is. It is stupid because everyone says that it is infinite. The question is where are we right now? I want to know why earth is located in a solar system inside the Milky Way Galaxy. Is the universe created only for human being? If God creates human being on earth, does God also creates other beings in other planets in other galaxies or does every planet has its own God? I feel that I'm lost and I can't do anything. It feels like I'm trapped with more than a billion people here on earth. Probably from another reference point, we are the zero and someone see that universe is definitely infinite. No one knows that. We even have a limit according to Einstein's Postulates. We have a cosmic speed limit, the speed of light. We can not exceed the speed of light because we need infinite amount of energy to accelerate something to speed of light. If that's true, we won't be able to find how big the universe is.
Eternity. It is related to the wedding that I've mentioned earlier. It's about love, unending love. When we say eternity, it means time will never stop. Keeps on going forever. What I'm asking is that where are we going? I don't know where time is going to lead us if the time keeps moving. In our lives, we are already used to the doctrine that everything has an end, even our lives. We are going to die eventually. Everything is going to vanish, even the stars and the galaxies (like I've said in my previous blog). However, this rotation keeps on going forever, towards eternity, and we are just a little part of it. Why are we here now at this time? Once again I feel I'm lost. I have to follow the flow of the time (until I die for now), and I can't make a change for it. It is fixed.
This what makes me start thinking of how difficult a marriage is. I say difficult because I have to love my spouse forever. Forever seems to be a burden for me because I don't know how long it is. It is not defined. All things we know in life is defined, except infinity and eternity. I want to love someone but I don't know if I can love her forever. It's a hard thing to do. Yesterday I went to a wedding. During the blessings for the couples, the bride and the groom said to each other that they will love his or her spouse until he or she dies. Isn't it supposed to be forever? If I only love my wife in a lifetime, what is going to happen after I die? Won't I see her again if I go to heaven? I really love someone and she knows that I love her, but this thing sometimes disturbs my mind. It is a great trial that every couple will face when they are married. Divorce means a violation to the promise one makes to God.
In short, eternity and infinity has changed my view about this life. I am nothing. Because I can't find the answer elsewhere, I lean my body onto God. For me, it is the only way to find the answer. If someone can explain to me about eternity and infinity perfectly to me, my view will probably change. Infinity and eternity become a big mystery of how great God is. It makes me scared because I don't know where we are and where we are heading to. I just kneel down and pray that I will be safe in my life.